Sorry, Fifty shades of WHAT?


I started reading ‘fifty shades of grey’ today, just because I thought it would be a worthy read, as it had become way popular. I had read quite a bit with patience before I couldn’t stand it anymore and just deleted the file from my laptop. Don’t be offended, it was just not my type of book. And if you agree with me, read on; if you’re a fan, I’d suggest you stop reading this.

Fifty shades of weakness evident on the MC of E L James’ book: How much weaker can a girl get? I’m not someone who discourages having weak characters in a story; they’re needed to keep the story running if the story demands so, but I think Anastasia Steele really needs to get a grip on herself.

Being physically weak is nothing shameful about a character, not even being weak emotionally. But the thing I hate the most in Anastasia Steele’s character is that she’s someone who’s weak enough not to see that the thing that she plays with is fire until her fingers got burnt. It is ridiculous how she fails to realize that Christian Grey’s arrogance might, after all, burn her. How blind can she get?

And the whole ‘love at first sight’ thingy is absurd (it wasn’t even love, for goodness’ sake!). If I interview someone (okay, let’s say he’s good looking, ‘cause Mr. Grey is described so) and if I find him answering me with utter arrogance, I’d be on the verge of punching him in the face, controlling my fists. I would never in my wildest dreams fall in love with someone who’s even a bit like the character of Mr. Grey.

I read a bit, got bored, jumped to the last paragraph of the book, skimmed it (not ‘read’, but ‘skimmed’ enough to get the gist of the ending), got to know that she was crying in the end, and deleted it. I never let myself even accidentally get to know of the ending — be it a book or a movie, but today, I really did. Who wouldn’t in their rational minds know of the consequences of dating a man who likes to torture women? I wanted to yell at my laptop, “Control yourself, girl! Don’t blame him to be a control freak when you can’t control yourself!”

After I read that he was actually no lover but a torturer, which is the ultimate truth, but gives it a completely different name – ‘dominant’ (bleh), I just couldn’t stop wondering why and how on earth the book got popular at all. Being ‘submissive’ is something a woman should never be. And that too towards an arrogant dickhead of a character like Grey?

I do not want to read a book that has the main characters struggling to stick to someone who didn’t give a damn about them at all. Anastasia Steele sounds a bit smart every time she says ‘I have to study for my exams’, but later, when she wanted to accept all those rules that Grey even dared to mention it to her (if it were me, he’d be dead the very moment) I wondered if she even used something called a ‘brain’.

I expected to read ‘yet another romance novel’, but I guess I was wrong. It turned out to be ‘the most annoying story from a silly girl’.

Certainly not a worthy read.

The writer in me


Main goal in life: To publish a book.

I know that I’m no good in English, and my low vocabulary tells me there’s no way it’ll be possible soon, but still, my heart holds hope. I could learn. I could improve. I could write more.

I am waiting for that day when my fingers brush through the rough pages of a novel, having my name in bold letters on the cover, and quite a few good comments from many other authors. I would just like to feel it. The way I feel when my goal of life is achieved. I don’t think a novel with barely ten copies sold would be something that I have in mind. My definition of ‘achievement of life goal’ would be if the book has been a hit and becomes a best-seller novel.

And of course, it would not be the ending, now that I would’ve published a book. It would be the beginning of an entirely new career, one path that is traveled less, as I have seen more IT people and those who sit in their cabins and simply do the coding in their computers.

Not to offend anyone, as I myself am a lover of coding languages like C and C++ (I will talk about coding in another post), but I wanted writing to become my future career. Of course, I will also work as an employee, as I will be holding an engineering degree while I write. I’m not going to depend on my writing for my expenses. It might/might not get recognized and might/might not become the best-seller.

I guess this is exactly the amount of confidence needed in oneself. Not too much, not too less, either. I do have inferior complexion and I once did say that I hated my (only completed) novel, but right now, as I am writing this post, I feel a bit encouraged from some unknown force around me. 😀

And one more thing that I’d like to add, because I’m proud of that feeling: I believe there’s no such thing called ‘writer’s block’. A person always needs some inspiration if he has to write something, and if he doesn’t feel like it, then he should just say ‘I don’t feel like writing today’ and not ‘I have writer’s block’. ‘Writer’s block’ seems like a term that further dries the person of motivation, and hence, I consider it a negative word. I don’t even know if I have writer’s block or not right now, because I don’t want to complete any of the novels that I’ve been writing, but my fingers are eagerly typing off this post.